Im so  tired. This life is getting all my energy.... and  what really worries  me is that sometimes... I dont

 have the energy  required.. for me to remeber why am I doing all this bullshit...

   I take a deep breath and remind myself, this is for him... to al least know him.

Sometimes I wonder if this is going to mske me Stronger or its going to kill me...

   But is the same for me if I do it or not... cuz  if I dont make it is  going to kill me the same.